My daughter celebrated the sacrament of first reconciliation this week. This is one of a series of sacraments that one progresses through in the life of a Catholic, which start with baptism and continue on to marriage. For this sacrament, one confesses their sins and then one receives forgiveness from God.
Although I find myself unable to believe in a God or the church, my husband is a strong believer and we have decided to raise our children in the Catholic faith. Despite my ambivalence about this decision, it has given me a number of opportunities for reflective thought on important topics. Like forgiveness.
I’m not so good at forgetting, but I have learned the value of forgiveness and try to offer it whenever it is asked. I’m also not so good at being perfect, and as a result spend quite a bit of time kicking myself over my mistakes. It is much easier for me to forgive others than to forgive myself. (Do you find that too?)
This week I made a mistake. It was a mistake because my words hurt someone. It was inadvertent on my part. But with some basic forethought, I could have avoided the whole situation. I’ve made my apology and received its acceptance. But still. I’m kicking myself.
All this brings me to this video. It was shown at my daughter’s reconcillation and I had never seen it before. Not only does it make me miss my dog, who passes away last year, but it also makes me miss that faith I had as a child that God existed.
Regardless of your own beliefs, I think you’ll enjoy this beautiful little video by Wendy Francisco.